Hello all!!!! Yes, I am still alive!
As most of you know, we have moved to WA!!! The past 4 weeks have been busy to say the least! We are pretty much settled in here, Michael has started his new job, the house is set up and unpacked. So far, I am enjoying living here. Some of you know that I previously lived for 13 months in Indiana while Michael was completing his internship for his doctoral program. Well, I am happy to report, WA is nothing like IN!!!! I love our neighborhood, love our house (for the most part, although it is a bit small for us!), Michael seems to like his job so far, and we found a great church! A lot has been happening.
So, despite all of this I think I am still a bit sad. I really miss my "old life." I miss my house, miss my neighborhood, miss my church, miss my family and I really miss all my friends. And, I miss the sense of contentment that I had at "home." I kind of feel like "ok, what am I supposed to do with myself NOW?" My response to this is..............wait on the Lord. But, I am so BAD at waiting! I know that the Lord has brought us here for a reason, and He is in control. For some reason, God chose to move us out of our comfort zone and into an unfamiliar zone! For me, accepting this and not clinging to the past, is crucial. Otherwise, I feel angry at my husband, bored, lonely and sad. After all, I MYSELF prayed that God would remove anything that was keeping me from a closer relationship with Him, so I am convinced that my level of contentment was keeping me from being closer to Him.
Would I trade my contentment for a closer relationship with God? Yes. Would I trade the familiar for the unfamiliar for a closer relationship with God? Yes. Would I trade a busy life for a slower pace for a closer relationship with God? Yes.
So, my task is clear. Pursue God during this waiting time. Find Him. Rely on Him. Praise Him.
Dear Colleen,
ReplyDeleteIt's so good to hear from you. I'm sure it's difficult...but I'm sure that God is well pleased with your heart that desires to pursue Him and wait upon the Lord.
Discontentment can be such a poison. Poison to our relationship with God and family. You are a wise woman in not taking the enemy's bait.
Recently in praying for a friend...it was painful because it was far different than what I wanted in my flesh...but I knew that it was far better for my friend to be walking in God's will rather than my comfort zone.
Miss you and your family. So good to hear that you are plugged in to a good church.
Love and blessings in Christ...Susan
Hi Colleen!
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear from you!
I can definitely relate to your feelings of the "unfamiliar zone" and "what do I do with myself", what's the purpose God has for me here?! You are absolutely right, rely on God!
I was just reading through Ecclesiastes and came across 7:10-14 and thought that it was interesting for this time in life, changes, etc.
Anyway, I look forward to hearing more on your life in WA! Thank you for your encouragement!
Love,
Kelsi